If you want to add me, it would be nice to tell me how you found me or why you want to add me. ^^ However, if I already know you (though not in real life, as in from university or something), chances are I'll probably add you back anyway.

All my entries are in English, although the comments (or parts of them) may be in Dutch on rare occasions. Only when there's a reason, though. XD
I have the tendency to ramble on and on, so I don't expect anyone to read all my posts in their entirety. Trust me, I understand you have better things to do. XD At the same time I read near enough every entry from my f-list (not including communities), but this doesn't mean I'll always comment. Sometimes I don't know what to say, other times I forget.

If you're on my journal and all of a sudden you're not anymore, it's because I either thought your journal was dead, or because we never spoke anyway and/or I don't know who you are. If you think I've made a mistake, let me know, and I might add you back. ^^

FO banner made by love_yuu_not

Since some people don't always know what to give me as a present I decided to make a wishlist. XD I love everything I get, but, you know, if you'd start panicking or really can't think of anything, you can look here. Plus, it's easy for me to remember what I still want to buy.

( Wishlist )

You know, there are many things I could say. I’ll begin with a big, warm, genuinely-felt

FUCK YOU.

No, I haven't behaved perfectly either, I know that. But do you really think you did? There's a lot we all could - and should - have done differently. I like to think it's never too late to change things, but never is infinite, so we don't need to deal with it right this second. If we'll ever deal with it at all.

I never wanted to lose anyone through this drama, and I regret that I have. In any other case I would've fought to keep my friends in my life, but I'm tired. Tired of the drama, tired of not knowing who I can trust anymore. Tired of the drama from both sides, because no, I didn't choose a side. And if I did, it wasn't intentional or willing. To be honest, I'm not sure if it's worth the fight, which is something I never thought I'd say. Your friendship did mean a lot to me, but I don't know what to do right now. And I'm not sure how much it meant to you.

It's probably not a good idea to write this entry, since I only slept for four hours or so and it's nearly that time of the month, which means my emotions are all over the place and outing themselves in anger. Perhaps unwarranted. I might regret this later, but right now I need to get it out. Besides, keeping quiet has always been my biggest regret.

Be angry if you wish, yell if you want, cut me from your life entirely if it pleases you. Hate me, bitch about me, do as you like. I'll deal with it later.

I'm going to empty out my f-list a little in the coming days. Nothing big; mostly deleting dead journals, journals with usernames that don't look familiar to me and perhaps some people I never hear from. It's getting quite crowded at the moment, and I need more time to be able to read my friends page and actually comment. XD

Anyway, I don't always pay attention very well to whose name I'm clicking, so if I delete you and you think "Hey, that's not right!" you can let me know here. ^^

Stole this from ai4jui.

Tell me your secret, or just your fear. Or perhaps who it is you have a crush on. Tell me anything about yourself no one else knows. I will not judge, nor will I tell. Your secret will be mine to hold. And I will not speak a word.

Comments screened and you can reply anonymously if you want to. <3

I got this idea from several people, and... well, I've been wanting to do this for a while anyway. >.>

If I've cut you, it's because of lack of updates/comments (as in, hardly ever or never) or because I simply don't remember who you are. ^^; If you think I've cut you by accident or want back on my f-list, drop me a comment here. <3

Step 1: Post this into your LJ publicly.
Step 2: Others will reply anonymously about what they really think of you.
Step 3: Cry, because this meme is so brutal, and it hurts.

I figured that if other people are brave enough to do this, I should try to be as brave as them. XD No IP-logging (not that I ever log those.. I think... >.> I don't know how to switch it on or off, so I have no idea XD).

Title: Kill me gently
Chapter: 5/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, drama/angst, romance 
Warnings: Bit of a twisted relationship
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixUruha, (hints at) RukixKai, mention of ReitaxAoi
Summary: Kai and Uruha have been together for a few months, but it's not the happy relationship it started out as.
Disclaimer: They're real people, so obviously they aren't mine.
Comments: Sequel to 'Do you love me?' which is the sequel to 'You turn me on', but you don't have to read either of those to understand this (they're just smut, anyway). Not beta-read and English is not my first language. Also, this is very different from the former parts.
Just a warning: I've been completely exhausted for the past few days, so I'm only partly aware of what I wrote. ^^;

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Title: Gloves, scarves and leather
Chapter: 7/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, humour (or an attempt at that), eventually romance and smut
Warnings: None
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixAoi
Summary: Aoi has become obsessed with Kai, his gloves and his leather, to the amusement of his band mates. The only one who doesn't know is Kai, but how long will it take for him to find out? (I so suck at summaries -_-)
Disclaimer: Nope, not mine. The idea for the photo shoot is mine, though, but if it happens to actually exist I'd like to see the pictures.
Comments: English is not my first language and this hasn't been beta-read.

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( >.> Almost forgot to do a cut... )

Title: Kill me gently
Chapter: 4/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, drama/angst
Warnings: Bit of a twisted relationship
Rating: R
Pairings: KaixUruha, (hints at) RukixKai, mention of ReitaxAoi
Summary: Kai and Uruha have been together for a few months, but it's not the happy relationship it started out as.
Disclaimer: Last I heard they still belong to themselves (and maybe to PSC); last part of this chapter is based on something that has actually happened (and no, not to me).
Comments: Sequel to 'Do you love me?' which is the sequel to 'You turn me on', but you don't have to read either of those to understand this (they're just smut, anyway). Not beta-read and English is not my first language. Also, this is very different from the former parts.
This chapter is proof that I shouldn't write when I'm sleepy. XD And I realize there might be people who will want to kill me after this chapter.

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Title: Kill me gently
Chapter: 3/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, some drama/angst
Warnings: Uruha's mood swings?
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixUruha, (hints at) RukixKai, mention of ReitaxAoi
Summary: Kai and Uruha have been together for a few months, but it's not the happy relationship it started out as.
Disclaimer: They're not mine... yet. >.> Plot is based on actual events, but eveything in this chapter is all mine.
Comments: Sequel to 'Do you love me?' which is the sequel to 'You turn me on', but you don't have to read either of those to understand this (they're just smut, anyway). Not beta-read and English is not my first language. Also, this is very different from the former parts.

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Title: Gloves, scarves and leather
Chapter: 6/?
Author: golden_kimono  
Genre: General, humour (or an attempt at that), eventually romance and smut
Warnings: Mention of masturbation, Aoi's imagination
Rating: R, to be safe
Pairings: KaixAoi
Summary: Aoi has become obsessed with Kai, his gloves and his leather, to the amusement of his band mates. The only one who doesn't know is Kai, but how long will it take for him to find out? (I so suck at summaries -_-)
Disclaimer: Yes, I own them, they all belong to me and we have lots of fun together. *rolls eyes sarcastically*
Comments: English is not my first language and this hasn't been beta-read.

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Title: Kill me gently
Chapter: 2/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, some drama/angst (but it's not that bad, I think)
Warnings: Aoi is acting a bit OOC, but there's a reason ^^;
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixUruha, RukixKai (you don't have to squint all that hard this time), mention of ReitaxAoi
Summary: Kai and Uruha have been together for a few months, but it's not the happy relationship it started out as.
Disclaimer: I plan on kidnapping Miyavi and Gazette when I see them, but since I have no idea if I'll ever see alice nine. I don't think they'll ever be mine. This chapter is mostly based on true events and some details have been taken from that (and have sometimes been slightly modified).
Comments: Sequel to 'Do you love me?' which is the sequel to 'You turn me on', but you don't have to read either of those to understand this (they're just smut, anyway). Not beta-read and English is not my first language. Also, this is very different from the former parts.

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Title: Kill me gently
Chapter: 1/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, some drama (but it's not that bad, I think) 
Warnings: None
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixUruha, RukixKai (if you squint), mention of ReitaxAoi later on
Summary: Kai and Uruha have been together for a few months, but it's not the happy relationship it started out as.
Disclaimer: I own neither Gazette nor Miyavi and the plot is only partially mine, as it is mostly based on a true story.
Comments: Sequel to 'Do you love me?' which is the sequel to 'You turn me on', but you don't have to read either of those to understand this (they're just smut, anyway). Not beta-read and English is not my first language. Also, this is very different from the former parts.

Title: Do you love me?
Chapter: 5/5
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: Smut, fluff
Warnings: I think none
Rating: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: UruhaxKai, KaixUruha
Synopsis: Uruha confronts Kai about what he saw the night before.
Disclaimer: Yeah, right, this is what I'd do to them if they were mine.
Comments: Sequel to 'You turn me on'. Not beta-read and English is not my first language.

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Title: Value of the pain
Chapter: Oneshot
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, fluff/smut
Warnings: None
Rating: R, bordering on NC-17
Pairings: ReitaxKai
Summary: Kai feels worse than usual after a concert and Reita does his best to help him
Disclaimer: The boys belong to themselves; as far as I know, that is
Comments: Not beta-read, and English isn't my first language. I was in a very strange mood when I wrote this, and it shows. XD

Title: Gloves, scarves and leather
Chapter: 5/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, humour (or an attempt at that), eventually romance and smut
Warnings: None for this chapter
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixAoi
Summary: Aoi has become obsessed with Kai, his gloves and his leather, to the amusement of his band mates. The only one who doesn't know is Kai, but how long will it take for him to find out? (I so suck at summaries -_-)
Disclaimer: No, they're not mine... *hides in a corner*
Comments: English is not my first language and this hasn't been beta-read. And this has been written for ninjahorror , since she asked me to update as soon as I was home again. XD

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Title: Gloves, scarves and leather
Chapter: 4/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, humour (or an attempt at that), eventually romance and smut
Warnings: None for this chapter
Rating: PG-13
Pairings: KaixAoi
Summary: Aoi has become obsessed with Kai, his gloves and his leather, to the amusement of his band mates. The only one who doesn't know is Kai, but how long will it take for him to find out? (I so suck at summaries -_-)
Disclaimer: Of course they're mine. They're ALL mine. Honestly. >.>
Comments: English is still not my first language and this hasn't been beta-read.

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Title: Gloves, scarves and leather
Chapter: 3/?
Author: golden_kimono 
Genre: General, humour (or an attempt at that), eventually romance and smut
Warnings: Masturbation, but it's short and not graphic
Rating: R
Pairings: KaixAoi
Summary: Aoi has become obsessed with Kai, his gloves and his leather, to the amusement of his band mates. The only one who doesn't know is Kai, but how long will it take for him to find out? (I so suck at summaries -_-)
Disclaimer: My dad once thought they were people I had made up, but unfortunately they're real and belong to themselves.
Comments: English is still not my first language and this hasn't been beta-read. Also, it seems the boys changed my plot. I know where I'm going (for the most part), but they've changed the way I'm getting there.

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